There is a famous saying – A PERSON COMES
ALONE IN THIS WORLD AND GOES ALONE. It is so true, not only for coming &
going but even while being in the world. One may have a lot of others,
relatives or friends, who are very near & dear but there are ample times
when one does feel alone. I think this loneliness is felt by almost everyone at
some time or the other in life. It is more so as one grows old.
During childhood or even student days one
hardly feels lonely as parents are always there. So are siblings and friends.
On growing up, siblings and friends settle in their own life. Contact remains
with siblings but circle of friends may keep changing. As long as parents are
there one feels confident to have their support & guidance but on their
departure one feels the void.
I am no exception and have gone through the
same phases. During working life there were times when a little loneliness was
felt but with friends & colleagues around it was short lived. After
marriage and arrival of children time seemed to be overly packed and even while
going to sleep the mind was full of what is needed to be done for home &
children. Once they grew up, got married and settled in their own life, more
time seemed to be at hand till arrival of grandchildren. Growing up pranks of
grandchildren ensured shortage of time. Our daughter is staying in the same
town but different locality. We visit them once or so in a month and they too
do the same. I do not like to interfere in their life. Our son was staying with
us. His wife and daughter were also with us, though not for whole time which was
another issue. He was offered placement in Canada by his organization and my advice
was to do what is good for his career. So he, his wife and daughter are there.
Though he wanted us to go with them but I felt that it is rather better if they
are alone for reasons which some of you know. It is now over a year since they
left. So self and wife are alone here. It gives us immense pleasure that our
children are settled happily. Still there are times when I do miss our
granddaughter who is in Canada. Circle of friends is also limited as most are
in different places. During my active blogging days a number of youngsters here
took me on as Uncle but as time passed most of them seem to have forgotten it
as they got on with their own life. I do not like to impose myself on anyone as
I never did so with our children but am always there for those who wish me to
be with them. Some youngsters are still in touch and that does make me feel
happy and wanted. I do try to keep myself occupied but how much TV can one
watch or read books, specially with what my health? So there are many a times I
do feel lonely. May be this is the life I am destined to live. I dread
situation if my wife goes before me.
Sorry to share my sad feelings with you.
